Dear Diary - part 12

HELLO-SKI !

good evening you all ! :) hah! it's the end of the holiday. so what's your feelin' ? bad ? yeah, me too. it's like the time goes too fast. i even didn't finish my homework yet. screw me. got punish by teacher later. haha.

yuck! got nothing to say. another complain from me. now i realize that i hate my layout. yuck! it's all pink! haha! it's too girly right ? and the 'welcome' thing, don't you think it's a little bit annoying ? every time you click somthing, it's appear! even when you click previous, home and next and ANYTHING ! it's so sad that i can't take it off already because it say 'permenant'. once you delete the html, you can't access to your blog anymore. whoah ! sot forever. i ever think about making a new account but i really love this blog! since this is my first blog and i already write a lot of thing! okay okay, i try to accept this as a fate. 

hey hey, im alone at home right now with only my father and it feels awkward ! what do you feels when you're only 'bedua-duan' with someone you don't close with ? it's really awkward right ? haha! that's what i feel and i don't even know what to do. it feels so stupid to have this weird feeling. haha.

hey, when school season is coming then i'm going to be busy again and maybe got no time to post something here. but i will try my best. when i think t back, i really are got a lot to do but i don't know why i didn't take it seriously. i mean, i didn't manage my time well. you see, i got this thing to do.

1) Drama practice. 2) School choir practise. 3) Compose a song for church choir. 4) Study.

okay, i know it's just a little but all this activity need a lot of energy. the drama and school choir competition is really near the corner and the time to practise for both of the activity is same! i hope both of my teacher understand me if i'm late for practice. it is so tiring. but i do this just because i wanted a mark for my co-curicolum. not because of that, but because of experience. yes, i'm hunger for experience! haha. it's all because this is my last year to feel high school, to feel the happiness of being a student in high school. whoah. im old and i didn't realize it. the feeling of being teenager is really great! i really wanted to keep young. FOREVER YOUNG babe ! okay, i know it's out of topic. i'm out of idea. but the point is, no matter how fun it is to be a teenager, it is still tiring because i faced a lot of 'pencobaan'. just like all the teenager. 

okay, let me told you something. a decision is made by ourselves right ? so, to be good or bad is in our own hand. it's our own choices to choose what we wanted. don't let anybody control you because they don't deserve it! sometimes people said that ' he's/she's being like that because of their friends '. NO! it's really are not because of friends! maybe a little but i still wanted to denied it! it's true. let  me tell you something. it is all because of faith. 

i don't know what am i talking about. it just feels like i'm judging right now but i'm not. huah! sleepy! nothing but a complain from me. sorry for the unmeaning post today because i really are blur. 

Dear Diary - part 11

wallaaa ! hello :) now here i come in part 11. i suppose to take a nap right now but my hand suddenly change the direction from clicking the shut down button to 'google' and type blogger on the search column. haha. i'm now addicted to post something here. hehe. 

fuhh ! i'm so tired and sleepy! i couldn't sleep well last night. i'm tired, sleepy and moody! moody ? why ? because of this person ! i mean another person that i don't want to mention his/her name. yesterday i talked about someone else and today i wanted to talked about anyone else again. so before that, if that-person read this post, i know you will mad at me or yell or what ever. but i do this for your own good. i mean, you are someone who can't accept any 'teguran' from anyone. so, to prevent from hurting you, it's better if you can read this by your own.

To that person. you are someone annoying to us. you're now 20+ ( i don't even remember how old are you and i really don't want to remember it at all ) we all know that you are the eldest and we should respect you.  but it doesn't mean that you can make us as your servant! such as, you always told us to take your food and give us a dumb excuse! ' ada saya mau buat '. what the .. ? you do nothing ! you just play with someone baby and when your food arrive you eat someone else food too! it's seems like the food that we took for you is not enough! arh! we all are sick of this! it's like you are the boss and we are the worker without any salary! i know that sometimes you gives us a free book from the place you work but it also didn't mean that you can ask us to take your food every week ! can't you see that we are not honest to do that work at all! can't you see our face ? we are really not sincere to do it at all ! fuh! we are just trying to respect you ! just wait and see you-person, when i got the courage to face you, i will tell you the truth that you are such a jerk ! if i write all the bad habits that you had maybe i can't finish typing until tomorrow ! it's just to many things that  you do wrong ! there's another thing that i didn't like about you. you like to 'menginas' your lover money. i mean, did you love that person or just because you love their money ? you should realize that-person. you really are should realize it. because not only me but all of us started to annoy with your childish attitude ! thank you if read this! 

huh. it's all the same. nothing but a complain from me. no! im not coward! i just don't like to hurt anyone because it make me really guilty. who feel the same as me ? then thank you because you know how i feel. :) 

Dear Diary - part 10

Hello there! here i come again with a moody mood. woohooooo! it's suppose to be happy because it's friday right ? it's not even an usual friday but it's Good Friday! hurm, i didn't celebrate it though. i think it's nearly the end of the holiday. so, hows your holiday ? is it good? i'm pretty sure you all had much fun than i am.

here i come with my story. last tuesday, i went to my kampung to visit my grandmother. it didn't take long because we go home for the next day. but before we take off, my grandmother ask us to sent her to Tamu at Tamparuli. so me and all of us except my little brother went to Tamparuli with a baru-bangun face. yeah! it's true. i just wash my face and go without changing my clothes. i don't care with my dressing because i know no one will know me there. so be it. haha. hey, you should know this. Tamu Tamparuli lagi best daripada tamu di keningau ini which is full with PILAKS! haha. the situation there is a little bit different then here. i mean, a LOT of difference! all the seller was so friendly and more polite than here. the price is much cheap than here and you can get all things at there! it's kind like a Jumble Sell. yeah, you know what i mean. okay! my point is, it's better than here. wohoo, i got a new beautiful bag from there. hee. i'm so glad i went there. :) (siapa urang tamparuli yang baca ni diam-diam saja. sia lebih suka suasana di sana. hehe)

okay-okay. enough with that 'tamu' story. let me tell you something about what happen yesterday. okay, before that, if the person who i talked about read this, i'm so sorry. but i know you wouldn't visit my blog either. yesterday, when i try to follow this one person blog, which-someone-i-know, it say's like this. 

" we're sorry. the owner of this blog has block you from following " and i was just like ' what the .... ? '

yeah, a little bit hurt but i know the reason why. everyone needs a privacy right ? so, i take that as nothing. i mean, let it be. i am nobody to told the person to unblock me right ? let that-person made his/her own decision right ? blah, it's nothing. i take that as a positive. but, i still wanted to thank that-person because it makes me feel how the feeling being block by someone. but i hope the person that i block also think the way i am. " EVERYBODY NEEDS A PRIVACY ! " 

hah! nothing but a complain from me. hehe. so, maybe that's all from me today. thanks to that-person, thanks to all who made me realize about anything. :) 

Dear Diary - part 9

well, hello guys ! here i come again to make you see a new update! hehe :) it's one week holiday though. so, happy holiday guys! hope you all enjoyed your holiday !

sincerely,

         from me :)