Help me please .. ~.~

Hey guys , I need some help here .. 

Urm , from the beginning I start 'playing' blog , I still in process to make my blog look beautiful .. 

But , I don't know how to make it colorful or something that will make others interested with my blog.

Sometimes , I felt so jealous with my friends blog that look beautiful and colorful .. 

Not just because of that , but also because of their creativity .. 

They can think deeply to make their blog more beautiful than the others , they use their creativity so that their blog will be more interested than the others ..

Arh ! I don't know why I can't .. 

I don't know which setting that they go .. 

I try and try and try but I didn't make it .. 

Then , I give up then choose the dark layout to represent me that I'm failed ..

To show that I'm a loser !

And I am really a loser !

I always give up for something that easy to do .. 

I don't know why , I'm so week ..

Huh , please .. 

Somebody , give me some ideas how to make my blog looks more interested .. 

Please , teach me .. I'm not 'pro' to use this blog .. 

What I knew is type something to thrown out all the BURDEN that live in my heart like a diary ..

But , I never thought to make my blog beautiful .. 

And this , I need your help who is sincere to help me .. 

I appreciate your kindness ..

Thank you .. ^^